Another Day in the Park

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 19:40:16 -0700

I've been hanging out in the park for the past few days. Just sitting there watching people

walk by, looking at families having their picnic, and lovers sharing the same ice cream cone.

I always ask myself what I'm missing, it seems like my life is empty and shallow. I always wondered why I can't feel a complete happiness. I do have happy moments and if I am out with my friends I am happy for a moment. But once I get home, everything changes and again feel the emptiness inside me. Like a big black hole inside my heart. Still can't figure out why.

For the past few days of watching people around the park makes me a little bit calmer and

Family

happier. Just seeing these people enjoy the company of their love ones gives me happiness as well. It may sound weird but the happiness I feel extends through out the day until I fall asleep at home. That is the reason why I always spend more time at the park nowadays, to see more children running around and families gathering and chattering joyfully.

I guess the loneliness and emptiness I feel is the result of my frustration to have my own family. I've been wanting to have kids and a beautiful, loving wife, but no one has come my way just yet. When the right woman comes along and fills the emptiness inside my heart then that's when I truly become a happy man.

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